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In tears…That’s how I started the year!

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Yes, go on and say it. I know you want to! Tell me how foolish I was, watching this right as I went into the New Year! Go on and say it! It’s not my fault that I did not realise that I had a major crush on Akimoto Sayaka until this frikkin concert! Which BTW made this way more soul crushing than even Acchan’s graduation was! Acchan was one of my Top 10 AKB girls and when I cried more on Sayaka’s graduation than I did Acchan’s there is just something quite not right! Turns out I loved Sayaka more than I even ever realised! And that realisation came far too late!

I cried so hard yet I did not even want to leave the room to go get tissues so I was all soaked through with tears when the concert ended! Everything was really perfect on this day. That ultimate touch of the other graduated 2nd Gen members coming to the concert! God! It was the Angels themselves coming down to escort Sayaka’s soul onto the highest plane of existence! And that song! That lovely song that Yasusu, that nice Dude Yasusu, went of his way to write especially for Sayaka! What a perfect song! Then the fans, even though I was like Yuko, being pissed at them for deciding to now show their love for Sayaka, it was really moving seeing only green envelope the whole Dome!

Then there is Yuko.

30% of my FEELS during this watching was because of her! If anyone did not get a heavy feeling in their throat while watching this and seeing Yuko, you are emotionless monsters you hear me? Emotionless monsters!!!!

Oh My God Yuko! It was like I could totally see the moment when she finally gave up and went “FUCK THIS, I’M SO DONE WITH THIS SHIT”! I swear toy you all, forgive me Yuko fans, all you Yuko fans out there, forgive me when I say that I would have actually jumped up in rejoicing tears if Yuko had up and quit right at that moment!


Ahem, forgive me but I am totally un-stable right now! And to make matters worse, When I was watching this yesternight, I did not get the caps. I had reinstalled my player and forgot to reset the capture settings so I had to fuckin watch it again today to get the caps and guess what!?! My face is all fuckin wet again!

But that was not the fuckin worst! Having calmed my tits enough to browse tumblr to father calm down, U go and see the news of Yuko announcing her graduation during Utagassen I believe? I swear my soul kind of died in that moment! Having gotten off the high of wanting Yuko to up and leave then minutes later seeing her graduation announcement…yeah…

I know this practically happened in 2013 but I can’t help but blame 2014! How can I be happy when I started the year in fuckin tears! And not the good kind either! And of course with these things, comes garbage along with it, like memories related to the same subject and so I was reminded of that conversation Yuko and Takamina had in a certain AKB48 SHOW episode about graduations and the FEELS fuckin happened all over again, realising how hurting, really hurting Yuko was! I swear I ma really surprised she waited this long to fuckin up and leave!

It’s safe to say that Team K is officially fucked now, right? Well then, brace yourselves for Team Shuffles this year lads. You heard it first from yours truly BG!

Fuck all these graduations, man, fuck em!

Thank the good Lord it seems like at 25 is when we can expect normal graduations. Which means MayuYukirin still have 3 years! I don’t think I can survive Yukrin’s Graduation and Mayuyu inevitable complete break-down! We can all agree that that will be the most FEEL-inducing graduation to ever grace the face of the earth! It’s sadistic but I am looking forward to it happening! I am sure it will be one for the records. If Yukirin is the one to graduate, I am sure Mayuyu will do something to remember! I don’t know what but shit will go down.

Anyway going back to Tokyo Dome, the surprise of the night was none other than Sae! I was actually expecting her to cry the hardest but pretty correct me if I am wrong but she did not shed a single tear, did she? I don’t know, maybe she turned her emotions off for the night or was so far gone she forgot how to cry or maybe she is just that strong hearted which really puts her at the top of my respect ladder! How could she have not cried that night!? She had to be the closest member to Sayaka, as far as I am aware so…You know what? I am so done with this post…

fuck this[3]

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2011…Best Year Evar!

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dat smile!
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Simply Majestic!

2011 will forever stay within my mind as the bested AKB year evar…until you know, Yukirin becomes centre which really, is just fantasy at this rate –_- Any way, the line-up for Senbatsu in the later part of that year after the Sousenkyou left me completely breathless! Such perfect senbatsu, especially that top triangle! Seriously look at them above there! I simply don’t see a difference between who is the Centre and who is not. Such Godly balance between Acchan, Yuko and Yukirin should never exist! No wonder it didn’t last, that was just too good a formation to last but so help me if I can’t wish for it to have gone on forever!

They could even do the triple Centre farther on or shuffle these three between singles! Seriously, look at dat Yukirin there, it’s like she was made to be in that position. I still can’t believe she did not look out of place standing there for a person who was coming from the 8th position! It’s like, she was finally home, where she belonged! Really, in those first caps she actually looks like she is the Centre of this hood man, and she might have been!

Oh well, I shall still wait for the day when Yasusu sees the light! And not just where Yukirin is concerned but also in regards to YukiRena…


This, right after that awesome BuraGeki scene in Majisuka Gakuen 2 too…>.< I swear someone or a couple of people in Japan already see the potential and are sending Yasusu signals but he is just too stubborn to pick them up! How can he not see how so made to be each other’s partners these two are?! Mechaike just sent you another clue dear Yasusu, please don’t waste it too! I don’t care if it’s not a single, I will take a drama too. In fact if it’s MG4 with these two as the leads then all that much better! You can even throw in your Next Gen pushes as supporting characters and I won’t even care, just, do something about these two already darn it!


Too many thoughts…

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*Screams murder inside*

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‘No Mayu, just smile.’

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‘I swear to Sebastian’s sweet butt I’m gonna…’

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‘Stop Mayu. Smiles, remember? Just smile!’


A lot of people…A lot of delusional people just died within Mayuyu’s mind at that moment in time I am sure of it!

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‘This is bullshit, right?’

Not even Yuko was pleased! Nay, was anybody in AKB pleased this elections?

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‘I call total bullshit!’

I don’t think so! I mean even the Stalker Acchan graduate is all like…

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This is a joke, right?

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Right? Some one tell me this is a prank.

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Dafuq am I gonna do now?

I could have played it before in a way that seemed like I was congratulating Yuko once more at her victory. Now what?!  I am supposed to officially pass on my torch to the new Face darn it!!

Fuck this..I’mma outta here…

Meanwhile the next Face…

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‘Soon bitches…soon!’

Mayuyu was so not happy on this day. I feel embarrassed now for getting so mad at Maachun’s ranking when Mayuyu was in the worst state. ^^ It was really painful watching her trying very hard to smile during her speech. Strange seeing a cyborg struggle to smile I tell ya >.<

Seriously though, anyone think that Acchan was there to officially do the deed with Mayuyu had she gotten 1st?! I mean it wouldn’t make sense to make the drama with Yuko again. That’s redundancy but I am sure she would have done it to cover for Mayuyu not taking 1st.

Too bad she had to happen…

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Good job Sasshi, hope you enjoy your throne. You know what they say about ‘Up There’.


Speaking of Mayuki…

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How I miss you two! I feel like crying my eyes out every time we get something! And what a thing! HA! Take that AkiP! Splitting Mayuki up and for what, so you can make Mayuyu ur B, I mean Face?! What, Team B can’t have the Face? Were you pissed when Yuko got 1st since she is in K? I bet if she got No.1 again you would have migrated her to A too!

Any way Mayuki said NO to fate! Look at Mayuyu taking the opportunity to be the kid again with Mamarin around, even though it was only for a minute of less! Look at that happy satisfied Robot up there in the arms of her protective Mama!


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Also LOlL at Yuko for being displeased because she is a third wheel. No wonder she pushed that button with all her might! There was tension in there that needed to go!

And seriously though, look at these three! Why couldn’t it be them at the top? I wonder if the time will ever come where these are the Top three again but with the formation as it is with Mayuyu as No1, Yuko 2 and Yukirin 3 or with Yukirin 2 and Yuko 3 (Since that’s how they stand in rank).Oh well…

And those Yuko reaction faces too Hehehe….Totally Me Gusta in that last one ^^

Any way, this was that short SMAP x AKB48 special before the elections. It’s on H!O already ^^


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Will the time ever come?


Prepare for Funerals before June 8th


UR New Center

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“YUCK! Better stay far away from the top. 5 will do just fine” – Yukirin

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Yukirin @ 5 with Rena bringing in the 6th!




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