No! No! This is not fair!!!

Life is very cruel sometimes! Why God, why?! Why her!!!

I saw this video on my Subscription Timeline and I was bracing myself for the worst news we Idol lovers can expect – Yukirin announcing her graduation. Yeah sure, so far there has been no signs of her graduating and she has been pointing to her staying around for a bit longer still but we all know when someone says ‘announcement’ it can only mean one thing!

The actual announcement turned out to be worse!

No, she is not graduating even with this news but even still, this is much worse! If you have been a fan and following her you will remember that a while back, months back actually, Yukirin was having problems with her hand muscles. A fan of hers that is a Nurse helped her out and that issue seemed to have been resolved but it turns out that moment was an alarm bell!

During a health checkup she took part in a few weeks back, she found out that she had early stages of a Spinal-cord Tumor that is left to escalate would result in her being paralyzed! That issue with the hand a few months back was connected to this disease, which is categorized as an Intractable Disease – which means that it is either rare, lacks effective treatment or requires long-term treatment.

Yukirin found this out days before the 15th anniversary concerts! But she refrained from making it publicly known because she did not want to worry anyone, especially given the importance of those three concerts, one being Miichan’s graduation, the other Team *’s final tour concert and finally AKB48’s 15th anniversary concert, which in case anyone did not know, Yukirin was fully in charge of…fully!

I can assure you 100% that no one watching her during that concert or around that time could tell that she had this heavy cloud over her head…no…her entire life! Like, I can’t even begin to fathom how she managed to handle all this and went on to do those concerts like it was just another fine day in her life!

I never thought I would have any more room for love towards her as she is practically God level to me but here we are, my love for Yukirin just tripled! She is now my Idol for life!

I cried watching that video even as she is still taking everything so well. Just thinking about the future is…No, I gotta stop. I have to think like Yukirin. She is not letting this affect her life and she is committed to continuing as an Idol for a while yet.

As for the condition, they caught the signs pretty early so there is a great chance or recovery if she begins treatment as soon as possible. Yukirin says she is feeling super healthy and normal and she will continue her activities along with the treatment so warrants a few breathes of air but still…I feel so heavy!

And not to mention that the last time we heard of Mayuyu she was also sick.

I really can’t…

Have a good day you all.