Yes! I have been waiting for this movie and frankly I did not think that I would get to see it any time this year but here we are! So, a very big thank you to Amazon for making this possible! And best yet, with Amazon you know there is going to be subtitles and the best in the business you can hope for outside of official DVD/Blu-ray subtitles! So, a toast to you Amazon!
Book-cover impressions I had of BLUE MY MIND was that it would be in lines of those really weird coming of age French mind-bending, BAD-ENDing and depressing types of movies. You know, like Martyrs, Water Lilies, RAW and all that! This movie obviously does have some of the elements in the mentioned movies like the other-worldly/fantastical elements, young leads (coming of age, duh), really moody and girls’ love (the reason we are here of course)!
That being said, there are some things that make you know that yeah, this is no France! Sure it does have some bile-inducing scenes but not on the level of French perfection! Actually, that is the most, if not, the only bad thing about this movie – It is afraid! You dear readers can condense it down to bad editing, well, okay, I think there is some bad editing choices in here too, but there are quite a few scenes that you can feel are going into a certain direction but then they suddenly cut them and on to different scenes! This happened quite a few times it drove me mad to tell the truth!
But these negatives are almost over-shadowed by what I got from the movie overall! I absolutely am in love with Mia and Gianna (Our main girls)! They were so cute together and their development was one that I have not seen before! Also for a change the fantastical elements were not in as euphemism for something but they were actually real! Yeah sure there was the adolescence issue at play with our main lead Mia but it was ‘real’! They were both real, not one being a representation of the other!
And really, the girls that play Mia (Luna Wedler) and Gianna (Zoë Pastelle Holthuizen) are so beautiful that you just have to pause at some scenes just to take their beauty in! Especially Mia! Seriously, I am still having dreams about her eyes! And that beauty I think was needed because of the character she was playing! She needed to be that enchanting! Interestingly, and a great choice, only one female recognised and was allured by her beauty while all other males were instantly enchanted! I have theories about this fact and it plays into how unique Mia and Gianna’s relationship is!
Luna and Zoe were in another movie together before this, but I haven’t watched it yet. It is titled Amateur Teens that came out in 2015. Yeah, good luck finding it without digging up some peculiar results.
So anyway, as the unusual person that I am, we are going to approach the movie in scenes/moments that grabbed my attention, after a brief summary of the overall story! So then, let’s get this thing started…
The story is about Mia, who moves into a new home and thus a new school. At school, she seems instantly taken with a certain group of students, the most popular circle in school, or more correctly, she is taken with a certain girl, their kind of leader – Gianna. She is motivated into joining them and she does everything she can to get accepted into their circle. She does get accepted eventually and soon she and Gianna grow closer and closer and this relationship plays out into the conclusion of the story!
But there is something peculiar about Mia! She has these out-of-character moments from time to time that range from a craving for raw fish and really salty water to instant bursts of anger and a certain lack of compassion! She also seems to have a lack of sex-drive despite seemingly out for it but it comes off as a passage of right of some sort, like she has to do it! Even during said actions of sex, she is detached and doesn’t seem to get out of it what most people would get out of it during their first few times! Not the pain nor the pleasure!
Actually, the only moments that you see her actually wanting something has always to do with Gianna! Gianna seems to affect her like no other can. These other out-of-character moments that she has are usually connected to Gianna! There is something about Gianna that Mia finds very fascinating as well as alluring! It is apparent that if Mia had any love, it was all for Gianna! In this, the movie did not waver!
But Mia’s changes were not just on the inside! As the time goes by, she starts to experience outside/physical changes too! She is getting bruise-like dark spots on her skin that grow as they spread all over her lover half. Meanwhile her toes are also changing, seeming to close the gaps over! Things get worse over time until her lower half completely changes!
All through this she is beginning to have doubts about her parents! With the help of Gianna she discovers that she might just not be normal, what with the suppressant pills in her mother’s drawer, that definitely played a part in Mia not having her period until now when she is soon to be 16! Or her lack of sex drive that was only recently awakened after Gianna showed her a porn clip!
Meanwhile her relationship with Gianna is also developing and while it is dancing in the dark among the other more hetero ones, it is clear that they are in love! Mia’s life is in a spiral so she makes some dumb moves, like allowing herself to be pulled into some would-have been rape had Gianna not been there to save her from herself and the guys!
Mia’s physical changes take a drastic, point of no return when she has to save a drowning drunk Gianna! Despite a now completely in love Gianna crying for her, Mia runs off home and we find that her legs have completely gone black, almost rotting, like she had the flesh-eating bacteria! But she is not sick, she is changing! And the changes go passed her waist when we find that she has grown gills in her ribs too!
Mia is turning into a Mermaid!
Which she fully does as soon as she takes some rest for a few hours in a Bathtub filled with water! There is no going back. Her parents were away! She calls Gianna, the only person that did not freak out at her changes and with her help, they take Mia to the Sea! After some alone time watching the horizon, Mia goes off to sea, seemingly never to return as she said her final goodbyes to her parents and her changes, unlike other mermaid stories, seem irreversible!
That’s how the movies ends!
I kind of like the contrast between the beginning of the movie and the ending! The movie begins with a little girl at sea, obviously young Mia, she seems afraid, almost angry at the sea! But not in the way that people are afraid of water or anything like that. She seemed afraid of it like it was a living entity. She was alone, not a person in sight. Not even her parents, and I believe that was intentional.
On the other hand, the ending has her almost craving the ocean! And where she was alone in the beginning, here she has Gianna, the only person I choose to believe she really loved! It is really sad an ending but I can’t bring myself to call it a BAD-END, you know, where yuri endings are concerned! Sure they had to go their separate ways when they had just reached the point where their relationship should have at ground zero but you have to think of the circumstances! Mia needed the ocean now for her continued survival and she was changed! There were things that she would not provide Gianna with!
And really, almost all other mermaid stories tells of ways where they turn into humans and back again so maybe Mia just needed to get sustained by her natural habitat after being away from it for so long, that afterwards, she will be able to return to land! Maybe she just needs some training by her people to control herself! We don’t know the future so the possibility exists! It’s not like she does not have a reason to return! Gianna will most definitely be waiting for her! Like their last moments together was a clear indication that they were as one, emotionally speaking of course!
And now for the moments, and of course how can I start with anyone scene but my favourite? It just can’t happen and so let’s talk the ‘bridge’ scene! If you have seen the trailer you already know this partially as it was alluded to in the trailers! In most of the movies I watch, there is always that one scene that grabs me and never lets go! In THE HANDMAIDEN it was of course the bathtub scene! In PROFESSOR MARSTON AND THE WONDER WOMEN it was the kiss-seduction scene! Here it is the bridge scene!
The scene follows Mia and Gianna who are running away from the department store security guy who was chasing them for shop-lifting. Mia and Gianna got split from their two friends as they ran away and as they catch their breaths having managed to get away over the bridge, the two are filled with adrenaline and it has to go somewhere! Mia gets a free view of Gianna’s bewbs, who decides to flash the whole motor way below them and after joining in the fun, the two dispense their extra hormones through giggles as the distance between them shrinks.
There is something so real about the scene! You know that one time you might have been playing with someone and then suddenly realised how close you were and your giggles got lost in translation as these alien feelings over-took you? I am pretty sure everyone has experienced that moment. I experienced it with my friend with whom I was wrestling fighting over some stupid money and suddenly we were in kissing distance but of course I chickened out and handed the fiver over and pushing my friend off me!
Stupid young me!
But unlike me, Gianna and Mia were so far gone that had they not been interrupted by outside forces, the would have ended up making out right then and there! As the giggles died down, in an interesting turn of events, it was actually Gianna that was moving into Mia’s personal space! It was the first time we saw Gianna displaying some kind of advance or attraction towards Mia! This is about 20 minutes into the movie! All times before and more after, it was Mia that was smote with Gianna!
Sure it might come off as coming out of nowhere but like an example I gave, these moments do happen suddenly. And really, like I said again, Mia was one good looker and adding in the fact that her being other-worldly, should have enhanced her beauty to the point of giving her some pheromones that attracted people to her, almost like the TV show SIREN where Ryn, the mermaid, gives of this enchanting smell that draws people to her even Fola a woman.
So what if Gianna hadn’t displayed any effects before this? Maybe she just had much more resistance and it is waning? I mean she was kind of drinking even in this very scene! Anyway, once the giggles die down, the two begin to have some intense eye-sex! Eyes onto eyes, eyes onto lips, eyes onto books, all the while the distance getting shorter between the two.
Thanks to the best supporting element in romance, the wind, Mia’s bangs fall into her face which gives Gianna an excuse to score points by taking the strands and tucking them behind Mia’s ear! That is one powerful move that has score many a kiss but don’t forget that Mia is a 1000% virgin so it is all up to Gianna to make the first move and she does as she starts to lean in closer and Mia can’t do anything else but try to stay alive as she is about to take that one final step into…But then the other two friends choose that time to catch up with Mia and Gianna and of course the moment is shuttered into tiny pieces!
But the effects were still very much there! Gianna and Mia shared a look that spoke of secrets and Mia couldn’t help as she always can’t, to steal a few extra glances into Gianna’s direction and she also has those usual reactions where one takes a moment to re-collect themselves after having reduced to a mush mess!
What a scene! Yeah sure, them actually kissing would have been much better but then we would have to deal with the drama of their friends catching them kissing and it was too early for that foolishness so a rooting of Mia and Gianna’s feelings for one another here was enough and the best call!
That being said, here is where one of those ‘negatives’ of the movie comes into play! This time it is all bad editing! There is this disorder I have that makes me a perfectionist when it comes to edits in movies that switch perspectives! By this I mean shooting the same scene but showing different angles of it, like switching between the character speaking and the one listening and when errors show up during this, like the other character looking the wrong way, not in the same stance as before, or doing the wrong thing, it always makes me angry!
It happened here too but it wasn’t a mistake per say but rather, a bad choice! Personally speaking of course. So, that part where Gianna tucks Mia’s hair behind her ear? It bothers me to no end that when we are looking over Mia’s shoulder to Gianna, Gianna has her arm to her side but when we switch angels to look over Gianna’s shoulder, her hand is already up touching Mia’s cheek!
Like WTH Editor!!!?! This is an intimate scene! Less than two seconds of showing Gianna raising her hand up would not have had that much of a negative impact! This happens a lot! It’s like the director doesn’t know the core of intimacy and they are just replicating what they read from a manual or something! There are more times where something should happen but it doesn’t or is cut off halfway! Like, zooming into Gianna’s face before she lifts her hand so we see the emotions when she decided to do it and then showing us the hand being raised, maybe it would even have shown more like the little shake in the hand to show that Gianna was nervous and afraid of Mia’s reaction to her action!
It really is a small thing, but it bothers me to no end!
The next scene is kind of out there! Please don’t try this at home! I doubt you would get the same result from this as Mia and Gianna did here! This is some next level ‘getting off’ if I ever saw one! It is the one thing this movie has done that I have not seen before! it deserves commendation just for that fact alone!
So, the girls are Gianna’s home, first time for Mia being there of course! They play around for a while and then suddenly Gianna is seemingly choking the life out of one of her friends! Actually for the friend’s reaction, it wasn’t seemingly! Gianna was out to choke her and she did not seem at all concerned! I couldn’t gather if they had done it before with how casually she went about it or if it was a new thing by how so against it her friend was! But if they hadn’t done it before, why did Gianna know that it would have the effects it did?
Anyway, Gianna’s two friends are a no go in this deranged game but Mia is way over heel in lust with Gianna that she volunteers for this weird of weird games! First though Gianna asks her to do it to her, in that Mia has to choke Gianna! After taking in a few breaths of air, she instructs Mia to put her hands around her neck and squeeze, hard! Mia is hesitant and Gianna keeps telling her to squeeze harder! She does until Gianna passes out!
She wakes up after no one knows how long and she looks like she just had the best ‘trip’ of her life! You know what I mean by trip, right? Anyway seeing this Mia says she wants to try it too and onto the choking game we go! That is the scene that we see in the trailers and clips! Just like Gianna Mia too passes out and in her unconsciousness, she has these underwater dreams/visions, which freak her out and as soon as she wakes up, she leaves for home, leaving a very confused trio behind!
But of course me being me, I saw passed the obvious and the death games that were to have surely turned off critics! What I saw was another connection that Mia and Gianna built! it was theirs and theirs alone! I think it was in this moment that Mia truly won over Gianna! Also Mia’s fascination with Gianna should have grown because if you look at her having been searching for a person that was out of the norm, then this scene alone should have put Gianna at the tip of that unreal scale!
The next scene is their first kiss scene and the sequential sleep over that followed! The kiss itself just…happened! Yeah sure, they should have already kissed at the bridge and Mia has been looking at Gianna the whole movie as if she wanted to devour her but that is no excuse for there to be no build-up to the kiss! Actually there kind of was but again here the negative of bad-editing got in the way of greatness again!
So, they at a party that the guy Mia ‘bounced’ with, as they call having sex these days in Swiss, invited her to, the two get drunk out of their minds again but unlike all the drunken kisses you know of, this one both Mia and Gianna were in control. And as expected it was Gianna that made the first move!
So there they are, the four friends having a great time dancing, some times Mia and Gianna are just looking on as their two friends dance and some times they join in! It’s during this time that Gianna makes her move and kisses an expecting Mia proper! A kiss is a kiss so of course we are going to love I but everything about it was so poorly executed! First of all as I said, the build up is weird! Remember where I said that there were moments were Mia and Gianna just stood there while their friends danced away? They could have used this instead of just leaving it there serving no purpose! They could have made the two build up the tension and want for one another by having them stare at each other across the distance. They could have had them slowly then dancing towards each other, eyes never breaking contact, have them enjoy a dance together for a while and then have them kiss!
It would have been so passionate and intimate a kiss! The poor lighting would have added to the atmosphere instead of coming off as an annoyance and poor light work instead as it appeared in the actual scene!
Yeah sure the kiss is meaningful since they were both aware and the smile Mia gives after the fact is grand but it could have easily been so much more that what it ended up being. These weird decisions are everywhere, including the following sleep-over scene!
Speaking of said scene, let me start by asking you what you think would happen at a sleep-over between two people that are obviously attracted to each other, almost made out in broad day light on an over-pass, made out anyway at a party, got incredulously drunk to the point of one throwing up, then having a sleep over which starts off with some ‘show me your belly button’ kind of games?
What do you think would happen at such a sleep-over?
Well, we can all agree that it is not ‘nothing’!
But that is what ended up happening here! Like what the hell man?! You have Mia and Gianna who have feelings for one another! They just kissed no many hours ago! They are drunk out of their minds! You literally have all the ingredients for magic and yet you want me to believe that they just went to sleep?!
Get out of here?!!
Every other time they had been together alone, they almost ended the world with their lust for one another and yet the best time a couple could ever ask for, alone for the whole night, in the same bed!?! You want me to believe that this one time is when they decided to be civil?! This very night they were smashed!?!
I am disappoint movie?!
Moving on to another scene which is the next party they attend, I call it the CPR scene, this time Mia being invited by Gianna herself in the middle of Mia having one of her weird cravings where she finishes off the fish in their fish tank, another ‘why you do this?’ kind of moment happens and once again it is accompanied by a lovely scene you can’t completely hate the movie for said failure!
Once again the two are alone, again completely drunk, we start off with Gianna finally admitting out loud how beautiful Mia is by calling her a sexy bitch. They have more infinity eye sex! Gianna gives the freeze-frame speech where she wishes that time would stop right then so they would live in the moment forever! As she says this she is of course staring right at Mia so lovingly and the tables are now turned where it is Gianna who is enamoured by Mia where as Mia was the one enchanted by Gianna in the beginning of the movie!
Mia turns to her and the two look at one another and you just know there is no where the scene is going but to them kissing! But this is amateur hour it seems, because the stupid editing happens again and when we change angles Gianna already had her head on Mia’s shoulder and they are embracing like that! Like, stop that!! These cuts are too amateuristic that I am choosing to believe that there is cut scenes in between! I am confident that Mia and Gianna originally kissed here before they hugged!
But again, I am not going to take away great moment of Gianna finally kind of admitting her feelings and wanting to be with Mia for ever! The embrace too was really cute a moment, even though they got interrupted by some Dude coming over to invite them at some other party!
Moving on, we also get the first glimpse of jealousy from Mia when she is left alone as Gianna goes off to dance with some Dude in the waters. She even cries as she drinks her sorrows away but because of bad sequencing we can’t tell of it is about something completely different as Mia at this stage in time is in deep shit! So I choose to believe it was because of Gianna!
Moments later Mia is brought to attention when someone shouts for help! The Dude that was with Gianna cries that she did not come back up! They are at a lake so this is serious business! Without even wasting a second, Mia breaks into a run for the waters and dives right in to go to Gianna’s rescue! She swims for a while and were it for anyone else, they would not have been able to save Gianna but Mia is so ordinally human so she is able to go deeper, for longer, and finally manages to locate Gianna!
Giving her a kiss of life under water, she swims them back u to the surface and a scared Gianna is clinging to her hero Mia as if her life depended on her, which it really did! But Mia is having a different reaction! She has, for the first time, been in fresh water and it affects her! She has to get out of there where everyone is watching. She tells a crying Gianna that she has to leave! Gianna of course wants her to stay and she cries out for her to stay but Mia just can’t!
Let’s talk about the saving aspect of this scene first! Forget about the actual context and then think of the fact that here is where the movie does another thing that is bound to win me over! They have our girls again save each other! I have said it many a times already but where couples impact each other’s life, I am forever in love with such a couple! Here Mia risked everything to save Gianna but she did it and without even a second thought! Later Gianna would return the favour when she is the one that saves Mia!
Actually Gianna saves Mia more than once! Remember where I mentioned that Gianna saved Mia from a gang-rape? That was a real thing! And it was harder a choice to make because Gianna was aware of Mia’s condition then and having found out Mia had pushed her away! Second, she was that much braver because Mia wanted it to happen first of all and next she was up against three Dudes! Of they wanted it they could have take Gianna too!
More satisfying with the final save, was the fact that it was Mia who called Gianna to help her! It was her most vulnerable state and Gianna could have easily had a very negative reaction! But Mia called her and Gianna did not reject Mia like all the others who found out what she was, did! Gianna is the only person that saw Mia’s true form and self! Not her parents. Not her boy toys! But Gianna! Heck, if Mia’s parents did not know of Mia’s true identity then they never even found out about it at all! The other students saw Mia’s blackened feet but they thought her very sick! They too did not know she was a mermaid!
Only Gianna got that gift and she still loved Mia all the same! This really bring me full circle to the start of the movie where Mia sought out Gianna as if he was a werewolf imprinted on Gianna, or a Vampire finding its mate, or a soul mate finding their other half through the centuries! It was almost as if Mia felt it in her very being that Gianna was part of her life! That Gianna would play a major role in her future!
That Gianna was her one love!
This alone puts this movie into my top list! Sure the execution sucked balls but the concept is too grand to deny! And since I took over 1000s of screen caps, you ill have to make do with a gallery, sorry dears!
And since I think that4000 words is plenty, how about we say goodbye here, eh? Until next movie…