I have said already how much I love my Readers, right? Well, in case someone missed it, I will say it again – I Love you all, you hear me? I love you! How could I not, when keep taking care of me like this! And so I thank you! Especially Xiaoyang at the moment, who sent me this lovely PV! I can’t believe I didn’t see it before! I mean come on, this has been on YT since July last year, the time when Hormones was the IT and while I didn’t know Cookcai (Bee from ThirTEEN Terrors) at the time, I definitely knew BELLE (Koi from Hormones). So for me to only find out about this now, and from another is kind of…actually it might be a good thing because it means there is still a lot of yuri out there I have yet to find! I thought I was running out, looks like the joke is on me!
As for this PV dear Readers, perfection! The FEELS are strong in this one! It was just about this one moment, the moment of their meeting and yet there was so much in that short period, so many emotions that I was simply blown away! This MV was just genius! The only reason I can think of, for anyone to down-vote this MV is because they couldn’t handle the FEELs that were forced out of them!
Seriously, what an MV!!!!
So, BELL plays PIM (PIMCHA) and Cookcai plays BANK (BANKBANKK) in this MV, well, at least those are their Usernames on whatever chat-site they are using! As I mentioned this MV is centred around just one moment – the moment of their first meeting face-to-face after chatting online for over a year. They don’t know each other’s sexes, well, I think PIM knows BANK’s sex since one of her messages imply that BANK is a girl (“Guys get embarrassed to you know”). Actually I guess since BANK thought PIM was a guy, then she knew PIM’s sex even if it was not the real sex but then again, PIM is the virtual persona so it isn’t lying.
Any way, these two haven’t met in person before and this is their first time meeting. No, not meeting, but a date. they even booked a movie and everything. Both are super excited to meet the other and you can feel the love in their texts (The MV is on YouTube with captions so watch it). PIM just looks too stocked to be meeting BANK but BANK seems incredibly nervous. And while I wanted to shout out at her for not guessing or at least suspecting that PIM was a girl from all her texts and that profile picture, the way she was closely staring at that said picture as she waited for her blind date to show up was kind of telling. She had to be thinking of the possibilities.
Before meeting her though PIM does show some insecurities as she asks BANK what she would do if she found that PIM wasn’t what she was expecting. BANK relies that even if she were a dog she would still love PIM. The smiles radiates back on PIM’s face and she goes to meet BANK!
This whole scene dear Readers, this whole scene!! I am not sure which is worse, the mental heart-break that PIM was sure to have felt right then and there when BANK up and left, or BANK’s absolute fear?! I truthfully can’t tell! I mean usually it would be PIM hands down, being left there just like that without even a single word said back to her! She did not get to hear BANK’s voice at all for crying out loud!
But then there was BANK, and even if she had suspected something, when reality actually hit as she meets PIM finally and everything comes crushing down on her, be it if she suspected or not, the implications were serious! She was already way nervous when she thought she was meeting a guys but for it to turn out that it was a girl, and this isn’t just about being friends or anything, they have been chatting for a year, have confessed their love for one another more than once in this short period of the MV, so the deal was real!
But it wasn’t that BANK was disgusted or anything. In fact her initial reaction, or lack of, told me that maybe she indeed did suspect, though maybe seeing that IM was exactly the girl in his her profile picture might have taken her aback a little bit. No, she was not disgusted or disappointed, not even in the least. She was just so scared when something that she wasn’t prepared for hit her instantly. No matter how much she had loved PIM, she had thought of PIM as a guy and in this world of easy access to information she had to know the implications so of course her fear is very much warranted!
Even more heart-breaking is the fact that PIM swallowed her pain that was caused by BANK’s departure by pretended that she hadn’t met BANK yet. She texts BANK stating that she had arrived and asking where BANK is. BANK tells her to wait for her and that she will be back.
BANK never comes back.
PIM: You said you liked me but you didn’t show up.
PIM: Can you come meet me? I am still waiting for you!
PIM: I really like you
REPLY-BOX: I really like you too
CREATE NEW ACCOUNT
TON: Hello Pim, my name is Ton
God! Someone take these feels away form me for I handle handle them right now!!!
Later that night, BANK is brooding in her bedroom with PIM’s picture staring back at her on her screen. I guess PIM just sent it to her now because it would be weird for a guy to send this to her, right?
Any way, it turns out that PIM is actually still at the cafe waiting BANK to come back as she had promised. Like, can you believe this?! If it were me and a person this good came into my life, I would put on a coat that instant and go meet her! It doesn’t matter if I am in my jammies or whatever, I would go!
What’s even worse here is that BANK does love PIM, almost as much as PIM loves her. It’s just that things changed too dramatically and she wasn’t ready for it. Which is why I was really, really, touched by what happened next and actually improved this already marvellous MV for me.
Some would see it as a really bad thing for BANK to delete her account and see it as a way for her to ditch PIM but that was not the case! If it was that simple then BANK would not have followed/kept in touch with PIM again with her newly created account. But here is the interesting thing. BANK created a new account, changed a her, and chose male as her sex! Again this decision would be frowned upon but I didn’t see it that way.
First think of the fact PIM has her profile as male too. TON (BANK) is also male. I see this decision as either BANK testing PIM’s belief in their love because this way she would see what PIM really thinks of same-sex relationships. The other reason being that BANK is punishing herself and also testing their love at the same time. I mean if they were to actually connect again at the same level as they had previously, then they are just fated to be together and I think that BANK sees this as the only way she would be worth of PIM after hurting her so. If PIM does choose her and they meet again, we can be pretty sure they will be a couple, right?
Seriously this MV is just genius! I love it so much! There was no happy END but really, reality doesn’t work like that. Also those hidden meaning in the ending I believe were a gift. I can name a lot of MVs that never give us anything after a BAD END to settle the bad taste left in our souls but this ending!
God, am I going to have to write a fic about this too?!!!
Thank you so much for this Xiaoyang, thank you.