Thank you Lord for this precious gift you have given that I will forever be grateful for. Thank you for finally giving me the chance to dream about Yukirin! Seriously after all these years of dreaming about any other girl other than Yukirin has been driving me nuts! But all that ends today for I have finally had one last night!
Now of course as with all dreams, everything is fuzzy already but there is no way I am going to just forget about a dream about Yukirin! No frikkin way! It doesn’t even matter that it wasn’t the kind of dream that anyone would want about their Oshi (you know which dreams I mean ^_-) but then again, all 48G dreams I’ve had have been SFW except one, and that wasn’t that out there as well. So really, I have no complaints whatsoever.
Beside,s this dream finally confirmed my suspicions about a person being able to influence their own dreams, in that they can have a a bit of a say in what kind of dream they will be having. In my case it was actually my environment than anything else personally that had an influence on this dream. That environment being the Yukirin World!
What am I talking about? Well, have a sit. Before I begin I have to get it out first that I have absolutely no idea who I was in this dream! Judging from the setting, which was a backstage for an AKB event, I had to be one of the members (body-walking?) I mean with Souchan herself there to greet me there is no way it would have been me. Maybe it was and I was a member of the family? Either way I was no stranger because of what I got to do and get away with.
So any way, I walk in there as some important person or someone the members know well. For some reason I am already looking for Yukirin so I have to have been close to her. But judging from the conversation to be heard later this can’t be. And I am getting side-tracked again.
But on course, I am looking for Yukirin. I stumble in Souchan first who points me in the right direction. For some un-godly reason she was in the kitchen preparing food!(Like, whoaaaa) I greet her but my glee dies when I see her face and also having heard her less- than- Yukirin reply. She looks so bad, so depressed, so un-like Yukirin! So of course I ask her what anyone would, I ask her what is wrong.
She of course does not answer right away but I have the patient of turtle so I wait. When she is done, which now turns out it was a boxed meal, she turns slowly and look at me. The pain in her face totally slashes my heart into so many pieces that a shattered diamond would be jealous! I walk closer to her dying to hold her and comfort her but I stop myself. I have to know what is the problem before I can start to get down to the bottom of it, right?
My Goddess doesn’t let me down, she looks me straight in the eye and gives me this strange look and says to me like it should be common knowledge to me (which thinking of now it really should be but it still isn’t!) and she asks me, don’t I know? She says that everyone is talking about. That they are asking where she was in the PV for the latest single!
Upon hearing that my heart stops cold! But my mind is losing it as it battles with itself trying to make sense of what this could all mean but not wanting to believe that it could happen! That Yukirin would not me in a PV for a single whose cast she is a part of! In my disbelief I begin to back away and taking that the wrong way my Goddess’s strength that that she had left all leaves her as she looks down and then begins shaking and before I even realise it, she is already crying!
It takes me a moment to get my mind back to the present then in a second I am next to her with absolute zero distance between us, my arms around her, crushing her to me, trying to absorb all her negative feelings. She cries harder, I hear Souchan shuffling behind us (she was still there!?!) but I ignore her. Yukirin cries even harder! I am frikking scared out of my mind! I never thought I would see this Yukirin! I have absolutely no idea what I should do. I finally give in and turn back to Takamina but she has disappeared!!!(Thanks a lot Souchan!) I am now fighting my own tears, it’s futile!
But there is no way I am going to let Yukirin know I am crying to I silently swallow my tears. My throat feels like a cat’s with a hairball stuck inside! Common sense leaves me as I lift Yukirin off her feet, hold her up by her bottom as she wraps her legs around me hips. Secured I begin to walk around the corridors as I rock her up and down like she was a baby. Where I got the strength to do that I have absolutely no idea so do not even ask!
All while through her tears and us just walking around corridors that were empty for some reason (thank you dream logic) Yukirin is voicing her troubles, her worries, worries that we fans all know so well! I do nothing but trying to tell her that everything is okay (Really? I am ashamed of myself for myself)! Finally, what seems like forever, we find ourselves in a room that is occupied this time. Souchan is of course there, like how she knew we would be stopping in this room is beyond me but any way, she is in the room we stop in but she is not alone, French Kiss is there too (Souchan, this is your doing, isn’t it?! You sneaky little…ahem!)
Once inside, I greet Mocchi and Akichan and once they see the mess we are both in they quickly rush over to us and help me set Yukirin down. I let them have her while I get myself together. She has stopped crying by now but she is still hiccupping like all hell! Her face is such a mess but she gives it zero attention. She doesn’t even raise a hand to wipe her tears. Akichan has to take out a handkerchief to do it for her.
When she has slowed down with those un-nerving noises, Mocchi finally asks what was wrong. (Thank God, I wasn’t the only one oblivious). Yukirin doesn’t answer and neither do I when Mocchi glances towards my direction. I am not feeling like talking too. Takamina has to step in and fills the girls in of what’s what.
There is silence at first after Souchan talks, well, silence in disregard for the hiccupping going on in the room. Akichan wanting to change the mood a little bit jokes about Yukirin finally getting nerve-touched by management and finally giving into her real feelings. She thinks of course that Yukirin is frustrated for herself and she would be justified were it any other girl but this is Yukirin, all her thoughts are on her fans. Mocchi seems to get it too for she touches Akichan’s shoulder and tells her as it is. We are back to silence again.
Then out of nowhere Yukirin’s voice fills the room as she talks and asks what she is going to do. What she is going to tell her fans at the next fan meeting. She says it is all her fault. that her negligence of the matter that her fans have been talking to her about every single time has caused this. That if only she had listened and properly showed how negatively…
Yes, that’s a slap! A slap to Yukirin’s cheek. A slap that was delivered my me! I ain’t even having no regrets! I totally slapped my Goddess! Everyone looks at me like I was a frikking ghost or something but I totally ignore them! i furiously turn to Yukirin and let lose on her! The exact words escape me but it was me going on and on about her being herself and all that and also touching on how this isn’t new because surely she is the PV at least once, surely and that this is not the first time she has been mistreated like this. She then goes to say hoe this is different, how at least in the other singles she was on the second line or 3rd and I swear to you guys I was so mad at her I slapped her three more times!
I had also had enough! She totally started it so I also went all out. I went on to tell her how it makes no frikkin difference whether she is no the second line or the very last. She is No3 in the whole of the 48G, which makes her No.2 in AKB alone which means she has to be right next to Mayuyu in any formation. Which means she had to be right next to Acchan and to Yuko and to Sashiko not any fucking where else! So does it make a difference?! It fucking does not! I think I totally showed the villain that AKS is in my very big rant. Souchan sure seemed very attentive so I guess something was about to be done , probably, hopefully! I sure did a number on that AKS let me tell you. I even brought up Sakura and Kagoshima too but of course after I gave a speech on how much I love her too so as for Yukirin not to hate me.
Yeah, I totally chewed her out on that let me assure you! I am pretty sue she got the message! But of course it wasn’t all fire. I am also pretty sure AKS in this world is totally screwed! Oh, also during my speech about Sakura, I touched a bit on that little subject of Yukirin and Sakura ignoring each other. You won’t believe the reaction she gave at that! let me just say that we were right on the money in regards to that subject.
Then some other things happened but they couldn’t have been important seeing as I don’t remember them but any way, there you have it. My first ever dream about Yukirin and it is about…
Damn you AKS! Or maybe I should thank you for how else would have have dreamed about my Goddess?!
And yeah, I haven’t watched the preview of the PV for Refrain and frankly after this dream, I am frikking scared out of my mind to watch it! Forget the fact that Acchan is in it, I am so not ready to watch this! Not until I get concrete evidence of Yukirin presence!Na-uh! No way José!
October 29, 2014 at 16:34
Um, about Yuki in the PV…… well, don’t get your hopes up, that’s all I’m going to say on that……..
Honestly I’m just tired of angry ranting about it on your site
Though the PV is very symbolic about this problem, even if that’s not the symbolism they were going for exactly.
P.S. I’m gonna slap you for slapping Yuki!!!!!!! :p
October 29, 2014 at 16:46
I totally welcome your slaps! Even I slapped myself for dream slapping her ^^
But seriously, something has to be done about this! It has reached a point where it is a crime against humanity, against Yukirin. But really, we talking about it is not gonna change anything huh? Oh well…
And now I ah even less enthused to watch that PV. Sorry Sakuratan but it’s gonna take a miracle for me to watch your first Centre experience and even enjoy it!
October 29, 2014 at 16:51
The only thing that can save it is a massive heel turn(to use a wrestling term) by Yukirin at the end of the PV (also with Rena because why the hell not!!!)
October 29, 2014 at 16:55
Okay, now you have piqued my interest! One more point and I am downloading that PV faster than you can say ‘Doh, I lied’!
October 29, 2014 at 16:54
At least it’s not only Yuki in this PV that is slighted, pretty much a slap in the face to at least Yuki, Sasshi, Rena, Sayanee, Akarin, Sae, Yui, Ikoma, Aya, Ricchan fans and all the rest!!!
October 29, 2014 at 17:04
Yeah, At least. But then there’s those covers. I wanna know how you feel about them. It’s especially worse when you see them combined. But then there is the illsuion of her being the promient onn on her cover but the nyou remember than that is the cover of the very last CD, the Tupe C of the 2nd Editions and I am like…rolling my eyes all the way to Pluto and back!
October 29, 2014 at 17:12
If it was this then I would be a happy man https://pbs.twimg.com/media/B1G-8PEIAAAIFcv.png:large obviously you can figure out why. 😀
But then yeah her single position sucks (watch it sell the most though!!!!) but then she’s with Yui and Akarin on her cover so I’m happy about that and if you join it with Rena’s she then close to Yuria and Rena, 4 of my 5 together there, that’s not so bad 🙂
October 29, 2014 at 17:19
Oh do I ever! Then add in Saeman too on that list and we got ourselves a winner! She is like, flanked by Rena, Sae, Yui and is that Milky way back too?!!
October 29, 2014 at 17:01
Well, if it comes to dreams and exotic experiences with Yukirin, I’ve had my few. After I watched the first episode of Kurofuku Monogatari, I had a dream of my entrance exam to University and Yukirin being the supervisor. And I took that exam almost 10 years ago! And in another one she was my neighbour and well things happened. I think Yukirin should’ve been part of the cast of Dragon Sakura, that series was good! Wait a sec, she was too young then…Maybe a remake?! (2005)
October 29, 2014 at 17:21
You lucky doug >.< Here I am struggling to have evne one SFW dream and you are having wet ones like they were breakfast, thanks a lot! Jealousy metre over 9000!
Hmm and what is this Dragon Sakura? Totally checking it out!
October 29, 2014 at 17:59
Dragon Sakura was 2005 drama about a group of bad performing students taking the Todai entrance exam. (Tokyo University, Japan’s top ranked university, also where I studied my undergrad. degree). I totally relived my experience.
The cast back then included: Hasegawa Kyoko, Aragaki Yui, Koike Teppei, Yamashita Tomohisa, Nagasawa Masami and Abe Hiroshi as the lead character.
If you are interested, then here is a link: http://www.gooddrama.net/japanese-drama/dragon-zakura
It is rare for me to dream with Yukirin — or to dream at all, and usually are weird or mosaic dreams — so you should not worry, they’ll come, those wild dreams you desire. If not, you can try self-hypnosis and induce yourself into one. Though I believe with Yukirin I’ve never gone further than a deep kiss, though she was with little clothing –i.e. shirtless or tank-top and knickers — or nude at least once. I guess having one poster and six photographs, one banner of Yukirin and one picture of Acchan in the walls around your bed does somewhat influence your REM state of sleep. BWG.
Anyway, Kurofuku Monogatri episode one, made me remember and have again that Professor Kashiwagi dream. As long as I don’t dream of her as a nurse nor a CA (cabin attendant; stewardess) I am OK, as Gloria Gaynor used to sing: I will survive.
October 29, 2014 at 23:04
*Evil Kragorin mode engaged.* 😈 -(Well technically that would be KraD’or, Kragodharr or something among those lines, who cares. You can totally ignore this line as it is by the way. 😀 )-
Anyway you finally got your dream with Wagi. And a frustration/stress relieving one nonetheless. Good job! *evil smirk*
Okay, this will be enough. I am not an evil person. I too had dream with Wagi. Only one I can recall but… After reading about Prof. Shiro’s one I conclude the maybe it’s the way of Oshimen that we never have extremely wild ones with them. Maybe because we rather not use them as a stress relieving factor? Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar. But I’m getting sidetracked here.
Yes, I had a dream with Wagi. A year, maybe a year and a half ago. It was not symbolic. It was the most NSFW dream I’ve ever had with a 48 member. If we don’t count the Rena dreams I’m having recently with the body switch and all that good stuff. 😛
But going back to the plot, I’ve never had any NSFW dream with any of my oshimen before. (Being in an onsen with Karen doesn’t count! We were like siblings or childhood friends or something similar in that one! 😀 ) I’ve never even kissed TakaMina in a dream before. It was always someone else. The first dream hug I got with a member was from Komori Mika. But her character was too different from the original that she must have been a symbol for someone else’s character. Then it was Acchan, who became my first “girfriend” from the family. (In a dream that is.)
But that Kashiwagi dream… As I read above about a “deep kiss” I just had my loudest evil laugh in my life. As I mentioned before it was a stress/frustration relieving dream. You all know, or well most of you, how my status with Kashiwagi currently is. It was a dream about relieving that stress. It went way over a deep kiss. It’s more like Idols69 territory than anything else. 😛 (Don’t go look up what that means! For your own safety! 😯 ❗ )
October 29, 2014 at 23:46
Telling me never had a wild dream then teling me you have kissed Yukirin…
You know it is halloween season right now, right? You sure you want to be on my bad side right now Dark Kragorin! Indeed, you are one evil person right now! And all these Rena dreams, why is it everyone else is dreaming about my Kamis, hot steamy dreams at that and I only get light ones, that is when they happen! I haven’t even dreamed about Rena yet FFS!
And you are telling me you hve even dreamed of Acchan!! I want to slap you so hard right! What, I am in a slapping mood today, didn’t you hear? Seriously though, you are on my most-wanted list right now! Here I am struggling to dream of any girl and you have not only had dreams of two of my Kamis but even Acchan!
October 30, 2014 at 00:11
Should I be afraid now? 😀
But I think you’ve misunderstood something. I was Prof. Shiro who “only” kissed Wagi. Me however… well technically it was a (french) kiss but on a different body part. 😛 I said it was the most NSFW experience I’ve ever had with any of the 48G members. That says a lot. Muwahaha‼ 😈
I’m currently waiting for a Maachun dream, just to make a full circle. 😀
But let’s be Okada Nana, I mean ‘serious’ here. 🙂 I’ve never had many dream with my Oshis either. A few with TakaMina in the past and one with Karen recently but not much else. WAIT! There was Yui in one of my most recent dreams. But there was too much chaos in that, that I totally forgot about it… 😦
It seems it is random of whom I have a dream with. Sometimes it is the member I watch the most but not always. But the Wagi and Rena dreams have a logical explanation since Renai s a tomato girl and Wagi is Wagi. But why am I imagining Rena as my future wife is beyond me… 😕 Seriously! This is happening a lot in the past few years now… WTF?
October 30, 2014 at 10:54
For the record, I state, as far as I can recall. Once you wake up, usually you remember no more than 10% to 60% of what are called conscious dreams, so as you can see there is a chance of 90% to 40% something or nothing more happened at all. And in all honesty it wasn’t that steamy, then again that is what I remember. I’ve also dreamed about Acchan — various times involving Yukirin.
Be patient the dream you want will come, try relaxing before you sleep and focus on the type of dream you and that will increase the chance of it happening.