It ends where it started
Opens with a kiss title and closes with a kissing title?
Best. Drama. Ever!
That’s right Peeps, the end is nigh!
When I first watched this drama, I was all kinds of disappointed and was left in complete denial of the knowledge that this ended on episode 5. I mean it is almost an hour for one episode but still, something this awesome should have stolen a few more episodes. And the way they ended things didn’t help with the denial. I mean it might just have been me but I was expecting to jump back into the present (Opening of episode one) and seeing what Hiroko and Sae were up to. Actually I feel like they just CUT the thing in half. But seeing at this was 1992, and this being Japan, I guess the pressure was on too hard for them and they did not see any way to go on without escalating things into pixel territory.
Any way going back to the episode, we left off at that soul-crushing scene where Hiroko sees Saki and Katase kissing and Saki smiling at her even after seeing that they had been caught. It seems that the Teacher was right! Saki is a devilish girl.
What are you going to do about it Hiroko-chan?
The hell am I even saying, she was obviously shocked! So much so that she just went back home and cried all night.
Even the fact that she had a crush on Katase and they are now comrades in love, even though she said she understood that and accepted it during their talk as they waited outside Saki’s apartment not long ago, nothing helped to decrease the pain she felt at that scene.
This here is what sealed the deal for me about how strongly Hiroko feels for Saki.
And the kissing wasn’t the only crushing blow dealt Hiroko that night. As she ran up to Katase before the kissing ensued, Saki was crying as she embraced Katase and she looked really vulnerable and herself – her real self – the person that Hiroko hadn’t seen before.
Other than the betrayal Hiroko felt inadequate as she realised that Saki will never be herself with her. She probably thought that after all Saki did not feel anything for her nor did she really need her like she seemed to need Katase. Or worse she concluded that maybe Saki would never see a girl that way.
Oh, the Feels!
And with the kiss came the real challenge to Hiroko’s devotion towards Saki. She really begins to question her feelings for Saki and wondering if she would still love her if things continue on like this.
Uh Oh! ALEЯT! ALEЯT!
But unlike me, and probably most people out there, who would react by totally ignoring and avoiding Saki after that, next day at school Master Hiroko goes up to her and they have the talk!
Did I mention how I respect this girl?!
And no, she doesn’t go to pick a fight all jelly and stuff. No, she buries that green-eyed monster and instead just tries to smooth things over even though she so should be raeging right now. She says that even though to Saki kissing is not a big deal (followed up with some evidence), Hiroko thinks that it is a great deal.
Ah but of course she is still human so she asks if something else happened after the snogging. She probably ran off right as soon as Saki saw her so she wants to make sure they didn’t, you know, go to second base after the kissing.
As for Saki’s answer to this delicate question from a girl in such a delicate state, answers with this:
“Well I don’t know….We did sleep together so…”
The look on Hiroko’s face…
SAKIIIIIIIIIII!!! WTF is wrong with you girl?!! How could you do it?
All poor Hiroko could think of saying was asking;
To which our favourite girl in the world at the moment replies;
“Why not? It’s not like I can sleep with ‘you’!”
Poor, poor Hiroko. How in God’s name is she still standing!! A new day just started and she is already taking damage! And you would think that after that Saki was done!
She is not!
She takes the glass of Acid, forces open an already severely damaged Hiroko’s mouth and forces the burning liquids down her throat.
“I love Katase!” – she say!
Someone please just get Hiroko out of there. Please, I beg of you!
And here I thought Michiru (Last Friends) was bad!
But our Hiroko is strong. Probably too strong for her own good as she still keeps staying for more when she asks what nonsense Saki is spouting seeing as she just rejected Katase just the other day. Saki says that fell for him last night. She says she is weak against skinship!
Like hell she is!
Then of course she throws more little boys at the bones that is Hiroko. Hiroko who is actually just barely holding onto her sanity with the way she was struggling to stay on her own feet as she used the fence for support.
Even as Hiroko looks this beat up Saki is not done. She gets into Hiroko’s much needed air space and starts to explain the quandary that was most likely running through Hiroko’s mind at that moment. The question of why it was Katase and not her. Hiroko was probably not even thinking that but Saki seemed to me on a mission of the destruction of Hiroko’s heart.
Hiroko finally loses it and slaps Saki!
Can we just take a moment to congratulate our girl with a round of applause and a few litres of tears? Because soon after she finally finally breaks down and cries. She says;
“Alright, I get it. I get it just fine. You are saying you don’t need someone like me, right? That you can never like a childish person like me, right? I get it just fine.
I was happy. That moment opened something in me! (The Kiss?).
Every time I think of that moment I would be filled with happiness. Every time.
But it was all a lie.”
“Well forgive me for falling for you.
Somebody do something!
I can’t handle this anymore. Hiroko really looks broken there. I feel like that moment there was when Hiroko finally transformed from a girl and into a woman. Say goodbye to the old happy go lucky Hiroko.
Because she is so gone that she would rather spend Christmas with her so-called friends that bullied her just moments before than on a date with Saki. She is so broken that she even openly throws fiery words at Saki in front of the whole class.
Sorry Saki but you reap what you sow!
After that Hiroko changes. Not that I blame her, those were some heavy sacks of feels that she got dealt. She doesn’t even spare Katase a minute of her time. And speaking of which, he has some nerve trying to act like everything is normal after what happened! You would think he would be out trying to give his side of the story but nooo. Probably thinks Hiroko doesn’t know.
Hiroko is also feeling the effects of her first love physically. She feels tired of it all. She was not prepared for the pain that came with love. She looks so tired and miserable!
Damn it, I want my energetic and happy Hiroko back!
But even with everything said and done, at the end of the day Hiroko still has Saki on the mind. Even though now she is plagued with nightmares of Saki and Katase in bed together.
The poor girl.
But get this, one night as she goes down to get something to drink since she obviously wouldn’t be sleeping with those visions, she receives a call. It’s from Saki. Saki is apparently in the mood to party and wants Hiroko to come with.
Hiroko’s face was like;
She of course turns down Saki’s offer because like, duh, didn’t we just have a break-up convo just the other day?! But apparently Saki didn’t get the memo because she asks
“Why? You love me, right?”
No, Saki seriously?!!!
To which Hiroko answers
“Sorry but I don’t love you no more. Goodbye!”
And she signs off that letter by slamming that phone down like a BOSS!
What’s interesting no note here is Saki. The way she stays on the line moments after being cut off and her expression was very telling. The point is driven home by the sound effects of the phone going ‘beep ‘beep’ ‘beep’ and the way she looked as she stood there alone, in the middle of the night in a phone booth.
There is something else going on here.
The very next day at school, I was like ‘Well, shit’ because just as soon as Hiroko steps into her classroom, there is already stuff going down. In the news, something happened last night that had to do with Saki that was so extreme it involved the law.
No sooner had she heard this than their homeroom teacher come and request for Hiroko to go with him. Detectives are waiting for them when they get there. They will be asking Hiroko a few questions about Saki. Katase too was called in.
They ask Hiroko to tell them anything she knows about Saki. And I don’t know if it was because she was still spiteful of Katase for taking Saki but Hiroko spills the beans of how Saki taught her a few things that included smoking and drinking. She even mentions the attempted suicide.
I guess Hiroko was really hurt more than I expected. Katase tries to save Saki by saying that she knows her better because they are childhood friends but the Detectives no longer give any because they got what they wanted. You betcha then that Katase would have to have a word with Hiroko soon after.
He asks if something happened between Hiroko and Saki with all the strange behaviour she’s been displaying. To which Hiroko answers that it was with him that something happened not her!
She really knows not how to filter her feelings, does she? >.<
But anyway, the two talk and it turns out it was all lies, Katase did not sleep with Saki. But he is still guilty of the kiss. He decides that they should go have a talk with Saki, the both of them, which kind of takes off a few negative points on him.
But when they get to Saki’s house, she is not in and then we are back to them waiting for her to come back like before where they of course patch things up again through talking and we learn that Hiroko after all still does love Saki.
But even though we get to know this and be happy, that only lasts for a couple of seconds because the next day at school, word is out about what Hiroko spilled on Saki. She is in big trouble for the drinking and the suicide attempts and all that.
Saki quits school and Hiroko feels of course that she is responsible but Saki tells her that she quit on her own. Really, it was in the making any way with all those days she was skipping before. Thanks to this though, Hiroko takes a step back to her old self a little bit as she wonders why she did such a thing in the first place.
Her love for Saki is still strong after all.
Hiroko gears up some courage and gives Saki a call that night. But fate it seems, had had enough of their trifling because Saki decides to give Hiroko a call as well but at home, Hiroko’s brother is using the phone so Saki can’t get through. And since Saki is on the phone, it of course means that Hiroko too can’t get through.
It was cute though, that moment seeing the both of them trying to reach the other.
At school, Hiroko has no soul. She sees her classmates all excited for the Christmas holidays and all she thinks is ‘Oh that’s right, it’s almost Christmas!’. The poor girl. And making things all that worse, the plans for the concert she had made with her friends gets cancelled because the two got back with their boyfriends.
It’s a sad sad world in Hiroko country!
Then the day comes. It’s Christmas.
I have to say I loved the cinematography here. The contrast between the scenes of Hiroko’s family and Saki’s was very…hardcore (Leave me alone, okay? My vocab is limited!).
On one hand we had the happy stereotypical family of the Shiinas (Hiroko’s) who looked happy as they sat down at a family dinner and exchanged presents like how any normal happy family would be.
On the other hand, we had the Asou family. It was a one-man dinner at the Asou’s, with only Saki in attendance.
These scenes changed back to back with one happy scene of toasting, to another one of Saki preparing her own dinner for four. That’s right, four even though she was the only one going to attend that dinner. To say that it was heart-breaking would be a complete understatement.
But even though the rest of her family was happy, Hiroko was not. She was obviously still thinking of Saki and what she might be doing all on her own of a day like this. Even though she can’t be with Saki the way she wanted, even though she tries to tell herself that she no longer doesn’t feel so strongly for Saki, Hiroko’s heart already belonged to Saki and it still is.
Her heart was already stolen. (The title, people, the title)
And while she is having after dinner tea with her family, there comes a doorbell ringing at the Shiina house. The uninvited guest is of course Katase. It seems he is worried about Saki. He came to pick up Hiroko so they could go to her together.
Hiroko of course goes into emo-mode but Katase talks her out of it and in the end she decides to go with him.
At the Asou residence, we see Saki sitting alone…crying.
Okay, that’s not good.
When Hiroko gets there, Saki is no where to be seen and what greets them…What greets them is a statue of what looks to be Hiroko, there on the table, next to the set-out dinner table.
Excuse me, I need a moment.
Okay, I’m okay.
Getting back to the topic at hand, while Hiroko studies the statue like she was seeing some kind of alien thingy from the planet FEELs, Katase stumbles upon a letter left behind and it seems it was intended for Hiroko.
Hiroko rushes over, her miniature self in hand and reads it over. After mention exactly how long she had waited for Hiroko to come (They had had a date for Christmas before hand), the letter starts off like so;
“I loved you Hiroko but I hated you you. No, I hated you but I also loved you!”
I can’t handle no more!
I rafuse to listen to this letter anymore. So I’m sorry but I have to skip that. You will have to watch it yourselves.
Any way, it seems they have no clue where Saki went off to. They go out to search for her but then don’t find her. And just as they are at the end of their ropes, Fate-san decides to throw them a bone. A memory of their first kiss flashes into Hiroko’s mind at that moment and it clicks. They had checked all the places but that and remember, Hiroko already mentioned to Saki how important that kiss was to her. They make haste for school.
Saki is of course there, chilling, when they get there. Katase plays his role just fine as he gives the two a moment.
The two of course start with apologising to each other for the way they had been treating each other. Saki explains that she hadn’t any friends before so she did not know how exactly she should be behaving with Hiroko.
Hiroko begs Saki not to go to Italy (Stay with me, please). But it had already been decided and also her Uncle had set her up in a very good art school so really, she had no choice. Well, she had but you know…Poor Hiroko breaks down in tears because, well…and Saki follows suit soon afterwards too.
Pass me those tissues Sis, thanks.
Getting back to…*sniffs*…getting back to the story at hand, Saki begs for Hiroko not to change. She says that she loves the Hiroko she is right now. She says she is glad she met Hiroko. Hiroko also says that she will definitely never forget Saki.
Okay, backup, backup!
What’s with the goodbye? I mean she is going overseas but it’s not like you won’t meet again, right? Or wait, are you trying to be smart with me but telling me to think of the reality of things?! Bitch please, this is not reality, it’s fiction! Give me ma GOOD END!
Any way, Hiroko gives Saki her present and while they smile at each other all silly, and i waiting for a kiss, Katase cock-blocks them! They play around, the three of them at Basket ball and we hear Hiroko say that she will never forget that moment in her life, that moment she fell in love for the first time and in love with a girl.
Wait, THE END?!!! Are you kissing me?!
See what I meant about this being shafted?!
Any way, that’s the way Sono Toki, Haato was Nusumareta ends.
Pretty bold to air such a drama at that time I must say. Sad though that gems like this drama rarely happen anymore in Japan.
When is the next worthy drama Japan? It’s been ages!
Sorry to bore you so here are the episodes